Monthly Archives: June 2011

What is?

what is it that you seek?
a balloon heading South?
or a paper blown East?

what is it that makes you angry?
a full course of color blindness?
or a bike that stroll backwards?

what is it that you love?
a golden feather among the whites?
or a droplet of diamond between you fingers?

what is it that you know?
a battery that runs dry?
or a book of truth that only tell lies?

what is it that you feel?
a moment of adrenaline before you touch the sky?
or before you touch the ground?

what is it that you smell?
the smoke that filled your lungs?
or the sweet vanilla from your mom’s kitchen?

what is it that you dream?
a vicious monster of your basement?
or a tulip of the frozen land?

what is it?
is it nothing?
or is it everything?

from the ashes of the rain
and from the will of the true sun
i have given you what you wanted the most

a ribbon by the bench
and a flower under your shoes.

mr.E

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kan aku dah dapat blog. haaa! well. bukan ape pun. aku terdonlod SPAM. pastuh terclick .exe file lepas aku extract donlod file tuh. sungguh laju jari aku memainkan peranan. macam pinang dibelah dua. laju wei. hape ke bodoh jadi kat haku nih tak tau la. rase fuck gile. yang pelik nye, jari aku nih cepat jek nak double click sume mende. aku dah nampak .exe file tuh.. tapi tapak tangan aku tetap tolak cursor pegi file tuh.. jari aku cam otometik double click file tuh. gile ke hape?!!! bangang!!! dalam 10 saat. je. 10gaddemnseconds! hard disk aku crash. tak sempat nak selamatkan pape pun. hilang keje2 aku. hilang segala nota penting. hilang no telefon awek cun. hilang email awek cun. hilang bookmark blogspot awek cun. hilang bookmark blog2 menarik. HILANG!! ade satu draft aku simpan untuk blog. panjang nak mampus. kalau convert masuk word.. Word Processor 2003 akan generate 93 page dari draft aku tuh. the ultimate draft. my maderfaking ultimate draft. babi! aku compose tahun lepas la faker wei virus! hilang dalam 10 saat je. bodoh ekau Halim! ekau bodoh tahap…… hish!!!!!! argh! ok ok! aku dah lalui phase nih. tak elok laluinye sekali lagi. tak mendapat manfaat. Innalillah wa inna ilaihiroji’un.

sekarang aku dah format pc nih. aku dah install Windows XP Professional semula. aku dah reinstall driver pc nih. aku dah join domain. aku dah set-up email account aku. aku dah install segale keperluan kerja2 aku. tapi macam2 mende tak jadi. nak install Chrome pun takleh. penat dah tengok manual ke hape. sume tak jadi. tapi nasib baik dapat guna Internet Explorer nih lah. walaupun lambat. asalkan ade internet. ok lah. sikit2 aku belajar camne nak format pc. lepas nih leh ar aku format pc kat umah pulak.

banyak jugak perkara menarik yg berlaku bile mase aku membuat keje2 set-up pc nih. dah seminggu dah. tak siap2 gak. pada masa semua ini berlaku. mak bapak aku balik dari Saudi. pegi wedding duapupu aku. makan ngn family. hi-tea ngn family. sambut befday bapak aku. siap dah selamat hantar bapak aku gi KLIA, sebab cuti dia dah abis. kene balik Saudi. tinggal mak aku kat umah ngn adik aku buat planning untuk kenduri kawen abang aku lepas raya.

oh! baju pengapit aku dah siap. aku jadik pengapit Faitz. demn! i hate baju melayu. dah la pink. i hate melayu. haha! i know. tade kene mengene. pi mampuh aku la nak tulis pape aku nak. ah! dah name member baik. takkan la aku nak tolak. eh.. jap. aku tolak la. tapi Faitz paksa aku. haha! mau aku tak tolak. kene berdiri tepi pengantin. lelame. aku nih kuat peluh. nanti baju pink tuh mesti jadi merah sebab aku berpeluh bagai nak rak. pastuh sume awek lari. demn! give me back my youth. eh..

jadi sekarang aku nak buat ape? facebook blocked, twitter blocked, youtube blocked, porn blocked, site mendonlod pun dah kurang sebab govt dah blok. so aku boleh blogging je laa.. aku boleh bace blog je la. nasib baik blog dua awek yg aku minat wujud. heheh! terluka aku. eh. terhiris.. eh.. ter’heal’ luka aku. dan bile mane aku boleh start buat kerja normally nanti. mase tuh. mungkin.. mase tuh aku akan kembali aktif berblogging.

skang nih aku nak cube install Google Chrome secepat mungkin. sebab nak main Angry Bird.. hehehehehehehe! bapak susah Angry Bird kat chrome.. aku install kat pc bilik aku semalam. dan semalam aku tido kul 5 pagi semata2 sebab nak dapatkan 3 bintang untuk phase 2 game tuh. lepas subuh. aku siap tertido mase berak. lol. pegi keje jangan cakap lah. kalu ade traffic light je. mesti aku lelap mate. setiap kali brenti kat traffic light. mesti aku kene hon sebab aku tertido. haram Angry Bird!!! mase lunch break tadi. aku tido puas2. tapi tak puas gak. so maknenye aku akan tido awal malam nih.

lagipun aku ter register game utopia.. online strategy game. so aku lebih aktif main game dari blogging. watpe blog. cerite pasal hidup aku je pun. bukan orang tak tau yg aku nih gemuk. haha!

kepade org2 yg berjaya membace sume nih. sile jgn klik .exe file dari SPAM folder korang. berlatih hilangkan habit double click tuh.

dan UAT!! tolong jgn faker sangat. mintak yg impossible. awak tuh bukan user.. awak tuh UAT je. dah la aku takleh bukak solution nih. ekau mintak macam2. bagai harimau menanggalkan taring. shish!

cheers!

and oh! aku belum tengok ‘tanglung hijau’. sape leh bagi feedback atau spoiler.. best ke tak crite dia?

Wrong!

have you ever went into an exam hall, knowing you’re not prepared for the exam.. at all? you have this impending feeling of failing the exam. but still you need to go and sit for the exam. its like. u need to do this and u hoped u can go through with it. but still, u know u’re gonna fail. so u started scribbling nonsense on your papers and even slip a ‘pstt’ note in the answer sections to the examiners to ‘please let you pass this exam'[well. i’ve never actually done that. but i know some friends who did]. but that’s not what im trying to raise here. it’s the feeling.. the impending feeling of not achieving anything when the day comes to end. it’s like the sight.. the image of loss staring you in the eye, face-to-face. and no matter what you do. breaking the mirrors, closing your eyes, wave the image off, or anything.. no matter what. you still have this hard feeling of loss grabbing your heart. and in the end of the day. it’ll not go away. instead, u’d be lost.

yes. i am currently presenting my current feeling. i woke up this morning feeling tired. yet i can feel my body boasting with life energy. so i called in for a half day leave to get rid of this lazy feeling. and the minute i started my day. this blankness, this void started to fill my head. and i cant remember thinking of anything today. no!. i remembered everything i did today.. and i remembered that i thought of nothing at all. @ALL!!.

its like.. i’m doomed or somethin’.

yet. still. i woke myself up from bed. took a shower. had breakfast. and i came here to work. but i didnt hoped for the day to be better. i silently do what i must do. like a robot. am i transforming into an autobot? eh? takde lah. i am becoming a work freak. just like everybody else! waking up and going to work. even if i really dont want it.. even when i dont think about it. its not fun, and its not horrible. it’s just.. NORMAL.. damn! all my life i strove to be abnormal. but now im being normal. i dont like it. i dont dislike it. im just doing it. not spontaneously. it’s not spontaneous at all. it’s NORMAL..!

waking up without purpose is something i do. at least the actual purpose is to be lazy. but waking up without a single feeling is just some normal human would do. no! no! no! u dont get it. it’s complicated. yet… improbably difficult to not understand what it is. it is questionable. but it is also answerable. argh! whats the term for this?!!

it’s not like i cant be productive when im just plain lazy. but im being productive by being in this normal-like state. it’s good. yet i think. it is just really really bad.. like bad-bad-bad kinda bad. worst state ever. a none commercial feeling. a void.

what is today? why am i experiencing this now? it’s not like i’m taking any exams today or anythin’ similar. i just feel.. wrong.

btw, Super 8 was awesome.. and Elle Fanning were cun abis.. definitely the next Emma Watson.. lucky youngsters nowadays!! aku dah tua.. so sad!
Dylan Dog pun best gak.. dah lame tak tengok movie fiction cam Dylan Dog. last aku tengok fiction bagus cenggini adelah Constantine kot.. cume costume setan mase last2 dlm crite Dylan Dog tu cam tah pape. nampak sangat costume. macam costume monster2 yg lawan kamen rider(suria perkasa hitam). keras jek. stok kalau Dylan Dog bagi Raidah Kick(Rider Kick).. !! mesti setan boss last tuh mati meletup cam bunga api.

Hepi Befday Les Paul

korang dah bukak Google ari nih? logo Google tuka ngn bunyik Gitar Letrik sempena meraikan Hari Jadi Lester William Polsfuss aka Les Paul yang ke 96.. walaupun beliau dah mati mengikut ape yg aku bace kat Wikipedia.. tapi dia tetap hebat dan kaye serta legend sebab menaikkan kegilaan rock sedunia. kalau bukan dia.. Solid-Body Electric Guitar mungkin dicipta oleh orang lain.. haha!

tapi aku bukan nak cerita pasal dia sebenarnye.. aku nak cerita pasal Google page tuh.. kalau korang gerakkan pointer korang kat tali gitar kat logo Google tuh.. ia akan berbunyik.. tapi susah nak kawal gune mouse.. so ade “keyboard” option button kat bawah logo tuh.. kalau korang nak compose lagu gune keyboard computer korang.

yang aku nak cadangkan kat sini.. cube korang klik “keyboard” button tuh.. pastuh korang type name korang.. jadik lagu… so boleh claim.. lagu name korang…

dan aku terpikir.. mungkin lagu nih leh jadik satu code untuk kite..
dan jugak simbol mende2 lain [macam barcode atau QR code]… tapi kali ni dalam bentuk MELODI!!! let say kate.. satu company nak jadikan melodi name syarikat derang.. bayangkan perkataan “S.D.N. B.H.D.” boleh jugak jadi cam satu simbol menyatakan yg melodi itu memainkan code nama suatu company.

idea weh Google nih… respek!!!

POsTo!

y’know what? i think im gonna try make that nasik goreng bunga kantan inspired by Acu.
now.. how am i gonna get a hold of that bunga kantan stuff. wait. dalam bunga tuh ade ulat tak? kang aku geli geli kang. haaa.. shit! haha! hmm.. i’ve never seen any ulat beluncas loiter in any kind of flower before in my life.. maybe takde.. ok.
ermm.. esok kot buat.. eh! esok futsal. so maybe saturday. ari nih? hmm.. gym kot.
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kalau Iblis and jin lahir dari api[which is also the source of light].. then, why are people so afraid of the dark? sebenarnye setan kaco time kite tido.. so doesnt matter kalau ko tido malam or siang. its just majority manusia tido malam. itu je. so bukan salah malam.. salahkan waktu tido ko!
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quotes

“if you’ve dreamt it, it will happen”

“the are no wrong decision[s], only wrong action[s]”

“belief made believe”

“men from mars, women from venus… but im from pluto”

“your shoes made no steps. its your footsteps.. so its the foot!”

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hmm.. ape lagi aku nak ngarut nih. hmm.. Glee season 2 finished.. EPL dah abis.. nampaknye aku kene sambung donlod Chuck. tapi Chuck pun cam pelan2 jadik kureng. gile “kureng”. but thanks to Agent Walker, I still like Chuck. she’s so fineee….
HIMYM? aku tengok tak best pun.. kenape org kate best? maybe sbb mmg tade kene mengene ngn aku. macam nyah kate.. so not my life nyah! huk aloh!
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tak abis lagi nih mapitt, areep.. ini akan menjadi lebih mengarut… sile tepuk dahi.
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aku beli karipap serunding.. alah.. karipap popiah tuh.. dah lemau.. serunding tak sedap. dah la 3 ringgit.
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today no One Piece!!! uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!! nak One Piece!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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read about the Solar Storm coming.. Earth will experience geomagnetic [what-ever that is] disturbance when the Solar Storm hit Earth. watched the Mega Solar Storm once on National Geographic.. if that kinda storm hit Earth.. it’ll create somekinda hole in the ozone layer.. making Earth hotter than ever.. sexier too. everyone under the “hole” will die.. yes! because its too hot.. u’ll not tan anymore.. u’ll be burn to crisp.. i wonder if we would be burn to crisp kat Padang Mahsyar nanti. kan matahari sejengkal dari kepala. but we cant die on Mahsyar Field.. kalau kat Bumi, kite leh mati.. and the agonizing feeling of 1,528,003rd degree burning can end when u die.. tapi kat Mahsyar Field takleh mati wei!!! shit!! u gonna feel it.. u gonna see your skin tanned and turn blacker than coal itself.
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okay okay. lagi 15 minit kul 2pm.. break aku nak abis dah.. mungkin aku leh brenti mengarut…
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oh! dan aku menangis lepas bace kisah Khalid al-Walid aka Pedang Allah.. bile la aku nak insaf nih?

Halelujah

Alhamdulillah!
dapat pun.. ingatkan tak dapat. haha!
sori. ini aku saje nak tulis. sile jgn tanye aku dapat ape.

nyeheheheh!

The Great Abstainers

got this email from my mom.. i know she got it from someone else.. heed this article o people

—– Forwarded Message —-
Sent: Fri, June 3, 2011 6:44:09 AM
Subject: Fw: Malaysia is building the world’s largest Rare Earth Plant is truly madness of the highest order.

To all Malaysians,
WAKE UP!!!

Malaysia is building the world’s largest Rare Earth Plant is truly madness of the highest order.

Australia is 58 times bigger than Peninsular Malaysia. With a population of 21million and a government that answers to the people, Australia dare not take a bet that a Rare Earth Plant is worth its risk and investment. If Australia which is nearly 60 times bigger than Malaysia reject the setting up of a Rare Earth Plant, why would Malaysia 60 times smaller thinks it’s all right to go ahead?

The USA has closed most of its mines, and so has China . In Mongolia , vast tracts of lands thousands of square kilometres are rendered hazardous, with toxic runoffs destroying everything in their path, with high radioactivity, tainting precious water supplies and this chain reaction will continue for thousands of years.

And all this is just from one small factory which has also been closed down. It is surrounded by partly frozen red-colored ‘tailing lakes’ up to a square mile in size and the land is scarred with toxic runoffs from the refining process and pock-marked with craters and trenches. Larger Rare-Earth refineries sit around the banks of the world’s largest tailing lake, Baogang – seven square miles of evil-smelling toxic waste that shows the shocking extent of this industry’s impact.

It is a scene that Chinese officials do not want the world to see. Several villages close to the lake have already been relocated because of pollution and security guards hired by the mining company.

And to think that Malaysia is building the world’s largest Rare Earth Plant is truly madness of the highest order.

Even massive Australia balks

Australia with its massive land size, could site it many thousands of miles in the centre of Australia, far away from populated areas and still be shielded should an accident happens but it will not even dream of building one in the country itself. But Peninsular Malaysia would be dead meat if the inevitable happens. And to think that it could never happen is fool hardy. The Chernoybl meltdown was not supposed to happen and neither was the Fukushima Nuclear Plant in Japan .

In the event of an accident the fallout could reach within an area of 80km radius, wiping out Kuantan, Pekan, Kemaman and most of the areas around Pahang and Terengganu. Long term the two states will be rendered useless and unlivable. It simply is illogical to site a Rare Earth Refinery so near to a large population and in such a small country.

Should there be an accident, the Peninsular will never be able to recover, and may even be sued by Indonesia, Thailand and Singapore And now that Australia with such a huge storage capacity would not allow the waste tailings to be reimported, shows Australia’s determination to wash its hands off the matter.

With Australia ’s announcement that they will not accept our waste, what are we going to do it? Hide it in Taman Negara, on Gunung Tahan, or drop in the sea? Or try to sell it to another unsuspecting third world country? All the profits we make will not be enough to pay for the disposal of the highly toxic waste.

Malaysia in its stride to become a global economic powerhouse, should seriously weigh the pros and cons of the project. And anyhow we put it, the cons do outweigh the pros. It would be downright silly to even think that we can outwit nature.

Childish reaction

The Pahang MB’s threat to pull the plug on Gebeng with the loss of 20 thousand jobs, should the Rare Earth Plant be called off, is really a childish reaction and a very weak attempt to resolve the problem. And to allow 20,000 people to lose their jobs just because the people rejected this insane project, when the Rare Earth Plant should not be there in the first place, is unbelievable.

It is also preposterous that Officials from the EIA saw if fit to announce that a comprehensive EIA study was unnecessary, EIA was set up for the sole purpose of protecting the environment of the nation, and it is downright insulting of EIA to ignore the people and to side the Federal Government.

If the BN government does not take steps to settle this issue immediately, it will only cause the people to lose faith in the government. Already the Bukit Merah incident is a black mark, and our government should take steps that such an incident should never be allowed to happen again.

How can our government be fooled by this Orang Putih Foreigners who continues to insult our intelligence? When will we ever learn not to play with fire? In our relentless pursuit for the extra dollar, we continue to mess around with nature without thinking of its disastrous consequences.

Rare Earth belongs in the ground and It should never be dug up and refined in the first place. Just like nuclear fusion, it will cause a chain reaction that may one day cause the end of the world. Chernobyl and the Fukushima Reactor in Japan is a testament to that.

180 countries in the world cannot be wrong to reject such a dangerous project. There is simply no mitigation possible should an accident happen. Gebeng is also situated very near to the South China Sea and a Giant Tsunami generated from a simple earthquake cannot be discounted from its list of failsafe emergency procedures.

One day we may be the laughing stock of the world by our decision to lose a country for the sake of a Rare Earth project.

The risk is just too high. And it is simply not an option.

what is it with Malaysia? Why is it so important to be in the eye of the world? what are the so called “leaders” in this country wanted so badly that they tried so desperately to show what they don’t have to the world? what is it that they wanted to prove?

that we are capable?
that we are rich?
that we can do anything?

please stop these nonsense.. the one paying the prices are us.. we! the people living in this country. you pay more attention to the eye of the world than your own people… and you say you’re doing this for the people?!!! we don’t want the world’s attentions!!! they can fuck all they want out there.. we just want to live our lives! our greatness lies not by being in the center of attention… we are not born for attentions!

we lose wars, we lose our home, we lose our hopes, we lose everything… but we never lose our abstaining abilities.

WE.. ARE THE GREAT ABSTAINERS!!!!

stop being a moron and give back what we have left in this world.. our peace!! ABSTAIN!!! you stupid moron!

Mak Bapak tak gune! syaitonirrojim!!

ha ah.. aku tak virgin… alah! bese la nih… mane laki yg virgin? tunjuk aku… itu stok alim gile tuh… yg dah melancap tuh, percaye lah korang dah tak virgin [yg laki la….. yg pompuan, mungkin still virgin walaupun dah melancap] hoh!

Perihal blog adik Adinda Evans aku rase dah sampai satu malaysia.. mmg kene ngn konsep 1Malaysia PM kite.. lol

adik Adinda Evans amat tegar.. malah aku mahu gelar dia Troll God sebab komen dia dah lebih 1000 pun.. gile babeng.. macam troll goddess “Saya Gay Saya OK”.. ye.. dia Goddess sebab dia gay.. lol..

tapi walaupun aku marah memula kat adik Adinda Evans.. akhirnye aku sedar.. sume nih partially je salah dia.. sebab mostly bukan salah dia.. sebab MOSTLY SALAH MAK BAPAK dia.. dan cikgu2 yang mengajar dia..

ini komen aku kat page dia yg ngaku “Saye Tak Virgin, Saya Bangga”:

ururules said…

dik… cube ekau buat entri bagitau name mak bapak ko serta cikgu2 dan ustaz/ustazah yg mengajar ko kat sekolah…

boleh aku pegi pukul derang sebab tak ajar ko betul2.. semua nih mmg salah mak bapak ngn cikgu2 ekau… ekau bodoh bukan sebab ekau malas belajar.. tapi sebab tade orang nak ajar ekau betul2 tentang hidup.. tentang dunia.. tentang halal haram syurga neraka dosa pahala..

yes.. sile bagitau name mak bapak ko.. supaye aku leh gi pukul derang.. mmg salah mak bapak ko semua nih!

June 2, 2011 10:42 AM

sebijik macam article yg aku pernah post dulu.. pasal salah mak bapak [cume dulu pasal yahudi.. yg nih pasal ajaran x ckup tentang hidup]. sile bace kalau boleh.

ye.. sedar lah.. memang salah mak bapak, cikgu or penjaga budak tuh yang semua ini terjadi…

ilmu Adinda Evans nih tak cukup kot.. jahil sangat. ade sesape leh tolong research sket budak nih tak? bagi aku name mak bapak dia.. maybe aku leh tunjuk kat mak bapak dia result membesarkan anak mereka yg jahil nih. kalau berpeluang. mungkin aku boleh pelangkung mak bapak, cikgu atau panjaga budak nih. ape bangang besarkan anak cenggini? aku rase anak Ayah Pin pun tak perangai macam nih [wallahualam]..

cube korang belek2 entri budak nih yg lain.. tak habis2 dia cube kapel sane sini.. cube cium sume budak laki dia kapel.. pergh! high social life gile ar [jeles aku…haha]… i bet dia tak sabar2 nak naik umo 18.. legal age to go clubbing. pergh! aku taktau ape jadi la kalau dia kenal dunia clubbing nih.. mau murtad terus. kalau Pavilion tuh macam dia leh gi tiap minggu mase muda2 nih [byk duit nih]… apelah sangat harge arak satu botol bile dia dah besar nanti?

oi! mak bapak budak nih.. bawak2 la rotan budak nih.. campak kat stor malam2 ke.. campak dalam perigi buta ke.. muda2 lagi setan dah menari2 dalam otak dia… kalau dah besar nanti, setan buat rumah panjang dalam hati dia wei..

aku doakan bebudak cenggini supaye dapat lah pendidikan yang betul.. moga Allah hantarkan pembimbing yang benar kat budak2 yang tak dapat pendidikan yg benar nih..

hadui! melayu melayu! malaysia malaysia! bile la rasenye betul hilang melayu dari dunia nih? Quote Hang Tuah “takkan melayu hilang” memang tak jadik kenyataan de… aku still rase melayu akan dilaknat satu hari nanti.. hanya Islam yg akan tinggal… melayu tak tinggal wei… bile Allah turunkan bala.. hilang kaum wei.. bukan hilang 1/10 dari kaum.. tapi 1 kaum hilang… so korang decide la nak jadi kaum melayu atau nak jadi Islam.. [melayu itu hanya kaum.. Islam itu segalanya]

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oh! update terbaru: entry budak tuh pasal dia tak virgin tuh dah hilang… tapi dah terlambat.. ramai gile dah print screen article dia yg hangat tu.. korang google je Adinda Evans.. byk gile kot result..

Capati

if you ever get the chance to stroll down Jalan Masjid India during lunch hour. at the end of Bazaar Jalan Masjid India (i mean the other end. one end is Masjid India itself and the other is the one i’m preferring to). search for Jai Hind Restaurant and chow down their Capati[s] with Chicken Curry.. lunch on the most delicious capati in the world..
i think its a Punjabi restaurant.. but leave your doubt.. its Halal food there.. and its delicious! friendly people too..