Bonus
it’s amazing that i have been working for more than 13 years and not even a wiff of the letter B.. though i can count how many times i heard the word “honest”.
13 years.. well, if you count my internship and all the part time job i had.. it’s 14 years then.
imagine how it feels to actually get the news 1 day before salary day that this company of mine is gonna give out bonuses for their employees? heck! I didnt get any increment since 2015 and last year when it finally happening… i got a mere RM75 for my increment. For 13 years of service? hahaha..
You gotta understand. All that 13 years of experience made me skeptical.. o yes sir i was. Heck, even if i was going to get a bonus.. maybe i’d get RM50 the most.. hahahaha.
Today i was proven wrong. Alhamdulillah. i got more than what i imagined, and by Allah, i am thankful that i lived to taste it. even if its just for one time (i hope its not a one time thing)..
I was ready to hand my resignation this morning (well.. maybe i still am) and follow my dreams (whtever it was), if i didnt get the rumored bonus.
But i guess, im gonna be staying a tiny while longer to see what the future holds for me in this company.
maybe until i found exactly what i want to do with my life or until this bonus buzzing in my head stopped. it’s just a buzz. i know it. they’re trying to keep the underpaid employees like me a little bit longer so that they can reap the most of it from me. And i’m too afraid to let go of my shitty low pay job because I know im not skilled enough to get another job.. and because i dont have a dream job. and because of the fucking commitments that i have to pay every fucking months.
Shit. i wished someone would just offer me a job elsewhere (with good pay). quickly. i’d happily quit my job right now. but that aint gonna happen.
o God! im ranting again. as usual.
Well, for the bonus that i got. Guess what? the first person to spend my bonus was not me.. its my sister. lol. i spent more than half of my FIRST BONUS on her kitchen’s rent. hahahaha.
She opened her dream kitchen business just before Covid-19 hits the entire world. So far, the business is not generating any profit. its the damn rent i tell you. renting a shop house just to make a kitchen is not ideal.
my brother helped with paying the rent before this.. but today. i guess today is my lucky day. hahahha. i hope this doesnt continue the following months or years.
anyone’s wanna try my sister’s Nasi Padang.. can order it from foodpanda or try DMing my sister in her kitchen’s instagram account:
Oh. Orders are made for around Klang Valley only. Its not quite my Grandma’s cooking, but i think she nailed the recipe quite a bit.. hope anyone’s reading this give it a try.
So on to me.. writing this long abandoned blog in front of the mamak where i had my Garlic Butter Cheese Naan and Maggi Goreng Mamak just to celebrate that i got my first bonus ever in my life.
I hope this continues every months or i hope i got a better job with better pay. or maybe starting my own dream job (whatever it is).
Or maybe!! I hope someone rich and likes to give out money to strangers, like Oprah, Ellen deGeneres, or vlogger David Dobrik, could just wire in USD100K into my bank account. I would appreciate it so much, i’d just blog about it. 😂😂😂. heck! who doesnt want 100K USD in their bank account???
leave me be. im gonna plan a holiday with my parents somewhere.. hopefully i can do it.
see you when i see you.. whenever that is
Ever Changing World
traditions may die. habits will change. humans will evolve when pushed to the brink of existence. Japan is the ultimate example. this is what becomes of Japan. because of their fear of earthquakes, and tsunamis and typhoons and whatever disaster coming their way. they evolved into a sophisticated society that could defend themselves from the natural disasters. well, not entirely (that’s for sure), but still… we see them as a strong nation because of all of their techs and innovations.
aku tau kite takkan evolve sehebat Jepun. but we will change somehow. we will continue to evolve.. slowly.
scammers and liars and criminals will find this as an opportunity too though.. and we need to be ready for them too..
malay logic
aku dah kira2, by malay logic yang tanak neelofa masuk neraka dgn jual tudung dekat kelab malam tu…
kalau ikut logik tu la… cerita Gantung ni sepatutnye dikecam teruk sebab tak Islamik dan mungkin menjadi ikutan budak2 muda.. yg akan lebih merosakkan masa depan bebudak muda…
tapi NOOOOOOOO.. tengok la berapa ramai sokong, yg suka dan tak amik kisah pun jalan cerita dia tu.. cam aku tak nampak pun komen “menegur” or kecam or anything lah.
Lol…
iye lah.. terer benor menegur dan berdakwahnye.. dakwah kat neelofa je ke? org lain masuk neraka tak kisah dah?
Spare me that “kite kene at least tegur” bullshit.. pejadah memilih dalam menegur? you obviously dont even care..
I wonder what do they think of me? sincerely?
Being open minded does not mean accepting that you can manage a love story outside the boundaries of a little memory. No, having an affair means you’re close minded, not open minded at all.. more so if you’re keeping it a secret. well, it would not serve the purpose of the word ‘affair’ if it was not a secret. But yes, it does not make you an open minded person.
Being open minded meant that one is accepting things that are out of the norm. And having an affair is a normal activity a normal person had done for thousands of years.
What made me… Me? well, I simply acknowledge and will accept that by any chance (in any chance that I probably at one time, have a girlfriend) my girlfriend is having an affair, and that I dont care one bit about it. I may at any given moment be jealous if I found out that my girlfriend is having an affair with another guy. but jealousy is just a feeling.. and I will not act to disrespect my girlfriend love to another guy from my own jealousy.
People told me that I should feel hurt, that a person I love had misuse my trust towards her.
But I’ll just say it again and again.. I do not own her.. so she has all the rights to do what ever she wants with her life.. and I have no rights to say otherwise.
The Moon’s Soul
29th january 2018
In A380-800 flight to Tokyo. 2.50am malaysia time. I have never seen the moon more clearer, more whiter, more shinier, more beautiful.. the would be blue blood super moon in 2 days time. upon the vast sea of white clouds, she showed me a glimpse of her soul. My God, can i be more thankful for this blessing upon my own selfproclaimed misfortune. Subhanallah..
so quick for me to recite what i thought in my failure of the heart. May we be clever, and may you see your blessings, whether it be in disguise or in the natural form of all blessings.
PS: now i wished i got the window seat.. so i could steal a picture of the moon and show to the world what i saw…
Dilemma
aku taktau nak buat ape.
keje macam tak dapat lagi. interview tak pegi lagi.. tapi dia tanye aku macam dia dah offer kerja kat aku and aku dah accept keje yg dia offer.
adekah maknenye aku confirm dapat keje tu kalau aku pergi interview tu esok?
Best Birthday Ever..
05/12/2017 09.42pm
I’m on the rooftop of the highest building in Empire City… can I say that this place is arguably might be the highest place in whole of Damansara.. I can see everything from up here.. I can even see Amcorp Mall.. hahhahahahaha!
The sky is full of clouds though.. I was hoping I could bask in the light of the SuperMoon..
But the air is clear. I can see miles ahead.
well of course i’m alone…
5.12
Adui.. aku nak spend time alone hari ni…
aku dah hide birthday aku dah.. ade je yg dapat tau…
Dah sorg dah start ajak.. aku pun kene la ajak yg lain..
pape lah
p/s: Allahummagh fir lahu warhamhu wa aa fihii wa’ fu anhu
doa utk org yg dah pergi. Jgn bace dalam hati je, bace dgn suara supaya si mati boleh dengar.. ye, org mati boleh dengar (walau kat mane-mane kite berada).. derang cuma takleh reply balik kat kite je
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